TakeThePunchesAI's blog

Hey, guys. I feel like I haven’t did a blog in forever. As you guys know who know me, last year was the worst year of my life. I was in a very dark place. I was trying to get through my fathers birthday without him after just losing him in March during my birthday month. I was wrongfully fired and was jobless looking for work, I was scammed twice looking for work.

Now now here I am with two streams of income and a potential third I’m trying to manifest closing out the year. There’s a new space I’m looking to move to in a few months. I’m just at a very pivotal point in my life where I feel I can finally change the trajectory of my life to obtain more freedom.

On the BG East note, I want to thank you guys for all the support you’ve been giving me, all your compliments. It’s really been fun and you guys still have more to look forward to this year as far as Leroy and his pretty Blaze. But I just wanted to check in and say I’m in a better and happier place and that I appreciate you guys.

Hey guys. I kept forgetting to post this but I wanted to take the time to thank everyone for the support with my BG East debut. I have no idea how well it’s selling but it’s been greatly received so far. So the support is much appreciated.

As I said before. I put great effort into entertaining you. And no, I have no idea what’s next but I film again in like five weeks.

Hey guys, the wait is finally over. I'm so happy that my match with Johnny Firestorm is finally up for you guys to enjoy as well as the others as well. I just want to thank you guys for all the support because you guys are literally the people that got me on there. Asking if me I'm on there, telling me I should get on there, pushing me to get on there, then it happened, lol. So as I think I said in that last post, everything was basically my idea. Johnny made his imprint, there were things he did I didn't even know he was going to do. I will note, I just saw it this morning, you really see how brutal Johnny was and how into it he was, lol. It felt how it looked, lol.

But I'll leave this post here, definitely would love to hear what you guys think, I gave it my all to make it entertaining for you. I also will answer any and all questions, I don't mind. Hey if you think it sucked you can drop those by too, lol.

I would share the link but I don't remember if I could do that or not but if you go to BG East, I will be in the newest catalogue.

Like I had an argument with this dude on a social media app over the Jonathan Majors (the guy who trained his body for Creed 3 coming out next month). Because of his colors and his pose, he was saying he's not being masculine and looks sassy. Like I'm really getting tired of this shit with older generations (not saying you guys, generalized statement) saying that my generation is not masculine. While I'm still 29 and Jonathan is 33, we're both millennials and part of the same generation. Like the color you wear should not determine if you're masculine or not. Whatever clothing you have on should not determine if you're masculine or not.

And I hope we're not treating each other like that on here. I may not look masculine to some of you, fine. Some of you might think my colors are not masculine, fine. But just know that's you're opinion not reality. I might look cutesy but if you look at my recommendations, everyone I faced was bigger than me. 50-110lbs bigger than me might I add. While I'm not the biggest guy, I'm just not a genetically built guy to be big. However, I'm an athlete and I train like an athlete. AI can take the punches because he's durable. Yeah I like to wear crop tops sometimes, that's because I think it looks masculine and I'm proud of achieving the abs I worked hard to build.

But I don't know if you guys encounter this stuff but I'm tired of seeing it and hearing about it because I've seen it brought up twice with two prominent black men in culture today. But it's not a black issue, this is a men of today issue. Thanks for reading this what I guess is thought-out rant, lol.

And be on the look out for my BG East vid, whenever it gets up, lol.

He guys, happy new year again. I hope this first month of the year is going well for you guys. I'm getting after it man, I'm taking aim at everything and so far we're sticking the targets. I've been keeping this under wraps, I've been aware of this for about two weeks but I knew I was going to do an entry for you guys. So yes, I had my first match against Johnny Firestorm. The boss dude had asked me who I wanted to face. I know a lot of you I talked to mentioned Johnny Firestorm. I wasn't sure if I could get a match with him or if he'd be interested which he was. I'm not going to lie, I was nervous as hell, but I'm always nervous going to the ring. I just really care about other peoples time because none of it is promised and I just want to make sure everybody enjoys the time and have fun. But I was able to loosen up once I had the photoshoot (something about me and photo shoots gives me all the confidence, lol.). Anyway, the match was a blast. I know you guys always compliment me and encourage me but I really don't assume I look that good or that I will blow it out the park. I treat everything like a process and build. So I was told I look really good, lol. And I did blow it out the park. I impressed everybody, even Johnny who went over the time (yeah, so this might be about a 35-40 minute match), lol. You'll see it soon so unfortunately I can not tell you guys the full rundown like I typically do. I will say my back is sore and my abs are sore, lol. And I definitely got my ass kicked.

My aim as I told you was to give you guys something unique, entertaining so I believe we delivered on that. There's also some things that hasn't been done that I suggested (they liked all my ideas by the way). So you guys stay tuned. So I don't know how frequent I'm going to be utilized, but they are working me so this might effect some occasions with matches on here guys. So If I say no more often than I do yes going forward, that's why. I didn't get a big head or anything, Okay. I just got a bigger target, lol.

This was all I really wanted to say. I was a very exciting and unique process and experience. I definitely understand why things are the way they are now with the structure. Well, you guys stay tuned and I look forward to knowing what you guys think of everything.

Since I woke up to the last month of the year. It’s been very emotional today. It’s like I’m in mourning, which I suppose it is. No question this was the worst year of my life. Nothing went right. I opened the year with a person I silent six years with and who I thought I’d marry walking out on me. Then my dad dudes abruptly my birthday month. Had great momentum for my screenwriting career, got reps attention/got recommended and yet nobody cared so couldn’t capitalize, got wrongfully fired by my job on the week of Father’s Day, got scammed twice trying to find home based jobs to cut stress and entered the most stressful time and has money stolen.

It took all of my spirit to fight out of all this each and every time. My spirit is tired. Joy has never wanted me more than it has now in my life. All I ever try to do is pursue what makes me happy and maximize my worth and I’ve never been so challenged like I have this year just to have those two things. My wants and needs are so simply and yet the hardest things for me to obtain. Sometimes I wonder if being kind is my flaw? Is being selfless not my key to success? I found myself in a place where I know how my father felt up to his death. If only he knew how familiar I was with this space.

Anyway, you guys on here kept me from falling apart. I appreciate every person I interacted with this year on here. Thank you to everyone that checked in on me. I know some of you guys joke, but you don’t know how much it hurts to hear some of you say “I’m jealous of you.” Nothing about who I am today outside of my goofiness and kindness is natural. I had to build into this person, build into this body you guys appreciate, I had to build with no confidence, no support system. I cry alone, I suffer alone. It’s a fight to sustain the natural happy and positive person I am as I am sure it is for everyone. But never be so sure you’re jealous that of someone unless you know their story.

So thank you guys, you helped keep me occupied and out of a dark place that’s always knocking on the door. I’m just wise enough not to answer these days. Make the best out of the last month, Merry Christmas and Happy New progressive year to everyone.

Also, it’s very emotional for me right now. I don’t know if I’m meeting for matches this month. So I’m sorry guys.

*any typos I’ll fix later, lol. I’m on my phone and not home.*

I know I was supposed to have a match with some of you, my apologies. I had an incident happen and it caused me great emotional distress so I was away. And since I've just been trying to bounce back. So I've been trying to find things to bring my stress down, I mean I'm still grieving given my father died in March and his birthday was yesterday (Aug 15). So I thought, why not try for BG East. I've been wanting some matches, and it could be a fun stress relief given I really enjoy being in the ring. After over a month of waiting and the help of a buddy on here (you know who you are), I got accept last week. They really like my look and apparently MarcWrestler (thank you by the way) knows the guy and put in the good word.

I thought you guys would like to know because this community is so supportive and encouraging. I'm a self-motivated guy, but I'm not a naturally confident guy. You guys flattering has really made me feel good about myself the work I've put in. And so many of you have asked me "Do you do BG East?" my God I got asked that so much, lol. I was embarrassed because I never want to disrespect a company and it's wrestlers. But apparently I'm pretty good so I want to thank you guys for the encouragement and pleads. I may have never considered that, I still wasn't considering this. It's just my stress was so high, it aligned, lol.

I was told a month regarding my first match, but I don't have anything concrete yet. Could be something soon though. But I just wanted to share this because you guys played a part in manifesting this, lol.

So I had encountered someone online who mentioned my name from an old account with old interest, old pics. Still in my 20s so not that old, but it made me think to go and look. These are from 2018-2020 (I was 25-27) Turns out I have some random pics out there from a deleted account, lol. There's even a post of one guy asking what happened to me, lol. I thought you guys would enjoy these pics, and maybe the comments, LOL. I don't have these anymore. I didn't now a post to do for this so I just put it on here:

https://t.co/t1GQEas8rX

https://www.lpsg.com/threads/ai93jr-what-happened-to-him.4854221/

If you guys have a similar thing to share, you can.

Again, this was all for fun and teasing.

I want thank everyone for the support, sorry to those I haven't got back too yet. I just got back into FL. As I told you, I'm from NC so I had to fly there. As you've read from the title, my dad did not make it. This has been the worst experience of my life. I just need some time for myself to grieve. I'll be in touch with you guys. This particular week is hard given I buried him on the 12th and my birthday is tomorrow. I just need a bit. Everything is out of whack but I'd say it's possible I look for matches again some time later in March or April.

Thanks again for the support from you guys. I definitely am going to need it, can't get through this one by myself.

Well guys, I started the year with a 2 on 1 match. That's been like a fantasy match idea for me since I joined. I'm really happy I finally got to experience that. And of course... I payed the price, lol. Here's one pic (*won't let me, sorry*) from when I got home. As you can see my abs are swollen (not as sore cause we're a little firmer these days) and my chest is red not the left side. I've never taken blows by two people at the same time, so that was intense. And mind you these are two big chest, broad shoulder pro guys. Both when you put me beside them, look like that could individually bend me in half, lol. So many first experiences; chest slaps, thrown in the ring, pulled into the turnbuckle, double suplex, double backbreaker, double gut buster, two different fist punching me at the same time.

I'm still processing it all cause it was a lot of different things going on. But most importantly everybody had fun. And again, I surprise my opponent with how much I can take.

But anything you guys want to ask me about, that's why I posted this, so we can talked together. And it doesn't have to be just about me, like if you had a 2 on 1 or something relatable, you can mention it.

First off, Happy Tiger year. Fun fact, Tigers are my favorite animal. So I just have a lot of energy about his year. Anyway, I was looking back at some of my journal entries and I was just so touched to see all the support you guys have been giving me. You know who you are so thank you so much. I just was really touched looking at all the comments. My eyes watered very briefly. I didn't grow up with this great load of support. Was abused, neglected, picked on, doubted. I haven't met some of you in person but words mean so much to me and it's nice being able to look back and read them.

That's all I really wanted to say. I hope this year is successful and prosperous for you guys. I'm expecting to end my relationship (unless he wind blows otherwise) step into my career this year, and step in to a new location. I want to step into a 100 percent free me and uncompromising chapter in my life.

Thanks again and I look forward to our interactions this year.

So those of you that I talk to know... I had another meeting today. Usually I meet for wrestling focused matches where my abs are targeted. But this is my first time going into the ring and it was strictly an ab bashing the entire time... My abs are hurting like hell. I have a reddish bruise over my belly button, my abs are so swollen it looks like I have bigger abs, lol. On a laughing note, It hurts to laugh, it hurts to sit, bend over, I tripped over a shoe when I got home and it hurt my abs stopping myself from falling forward. It hurts sitting upright typing this, lol. It feels like I overexercised my abs and got beat at the same time, lol. But that is what the I'm talking about.

So in this gut punch session, I experienced elbows, kicks, knees, tramples. I've never experienced any of that before. But I felt a new world of pain that I've never felt before, like sent a shock through my body. There was a moment where I was tied to the ground with my hands and feet tied behind my back, and I was being kicked while on my side. Everything changed from there, and then I realized I do have a weak spot on my abs. And every time he'd strike that spot, I was in agony, lol. It literally leaned me over. I even ended up using the safe word. But, I did manage to last an hour and fifteen minutes. Those are the most painful hours and fifthteen minutes my abs have ever felt.

I just wanted you guys to know, I do have a weak spot, lol. And I had a lot of fun. I did post some pics of the results, but I don't know how much will appear on here. But I posted this journal entry so everybody can talk about the match here, so it's easier.

Hey, I just wanted to take a moment to recap. Final month of the year and it just so happens that I officially have been on here a year. I came on looking to explore an interest I always had, but always enjoyed from the background. I spent a long time not very comfortable with my body and appearance and just not having confidence. But from my early 20s up to me in my late 20s now, that confidence grew more and more. And I finally had the confidence to take the step on here that I did. I'm glad I did it. It's been so much fun meeting not only being comfortable in my own skin, but just meeting the different people and having conversations, and physically interacting with different energies in matches.

There was much growth from me in many different ways this year, but you guys on here helped in that. I sincerely don't expect you guys to say some of the things you say, but it just makes me feel really good about myself. I had no idea the work I put into my body would get so much praise. All I see is things I need to work on and better. But I've learned that it's Okay to appreciate what you have and maximize what you have because that is enough. For obvious reasons I no longer partake in the chat, but I am grateful for all the people I was able to talk to and interact with on there. To all of those that I talk to regularly, I appreciate you taking the time to value my presence. I'm the lone wolf type so it's nice to be acknowledged every now and then.

I said I was going to give it a year and decide if I want to stay on here, I am definitely going to stick around a bit longer. I like it on here, and I have so much fun meeting with the guys the are willing to take the time with me.

I will note, I am striving to be in a whole other state in the new year, so we'll see where things go from there. I just wanted to make note of my appreciation. I hope everyone has a blessed rest of the month, Merry Christmas and a Happy New year.

Hey guys. First off I want to thank everyone for the support from my last journal post. Those that reached out privately, it's much appreciated. Again, to those I didn't respond to. It's nothing personal, I'm just a private person. I'm a very self-aware person and I handle things a certain way. But I did read everyones messages and it really meant a lot to be told those things. I had no idea I was viewed that way on here. It makes me view the site even more differently. I felt acknowledge as a human being rather than an object like never before so thank you so much for that.

Anyway, I'm back on guys. Not going to lie, still a lot on my plate, just really busy. But the time I have that's open, I definitely want to get in a really fun match. Think I'm due for another fun push to my limits. I still haven't broke in my new pro wrestling trunks, lol. So thanks again for the support and I hope everyone is doing Okay this month.

*side note* anyone still grieving a loss from 9/11, I'm very sorry for your loss and I hope you're able to find peace and comfort in the memories you still have that or those individuals. They will never be lost that way.

Hey guys. I'll be brief. These recent weeks have been tough for me. I'm not in a happy place mentally right now. So, I don't really want to meet anybody for matches right now, and please don't be offended if I don't message you back. The last two days I've been in tears which is not a good sign for me. I just need some time to myself. Thank you for understanding, and if you never hear or see me again... well, life goes on, right? You guys be safe and I hope everyone else is doing well.

Hey guys. So I thought this I'm about to share would be a great life philosophy and a great moment for everybody to learn about the real me.

So I joined this site back in November, as we came into 2021 I did land my first match. A little after the that somebody invited me to the chat. I was never on there before so I gave it a try. I ended up really enjoying it so I was on there all the time. I enjoyed the different people, I enjoyed asking questions. Sone of the random PM'S... not so much, just saying, lol. Overtime I thought It was welcoming and open and fun. But overtime, I began to feel a different energy in people on there. Like you cross a boundary or two, or three, or... and you just have it happen here and there, then it happens every other week. Then you have people coming and telling you you're annoying and then people Pming you and telling you you're annoying and how a group of people talk about it and all if this. The later is a fresh incident I'm referring too. And the sad part is, I was the one trying to defuse the situation, but I was the target and then I realized that my presence is bothersome to people. And then I thought maybe I was keeping people from being on the chat regardless of whether I did anything wrong. So I decided to simply step away and not be on there anymore.

Whether a chat, at your job, in a group, in your relationship, or ect. Never be afraid to step way from the situation, it's Okay. Do I like being on there, yeah. Did I want to keep being on there, yeah. But, why go on there and be viewed as something you're not and deal with all the unnecessary comments? Why deal with such energy that's not productive and not a reflection of who you are and what you deserve. Like you don't have to deal with that.

People see a certain look on someone and they see the character of the person and they think it applies to everyone who looks similar to this character. So, my body. The reason I look like I look is not to be thirsted over or to project myself as better or more important than anybody. I got my body here because I've battled depression since I was 12 due to traumatic family issues combined with lack of confidence. In my early 20s while in college, my mental foundation was crumbling, it was falling apart and I found myself contemplating suicide and being sure of it and it scared me. So I started exercising mainly to settle my mind and to keep me as far away from those dark thoughts as I can. It keeps me sharp, kept my mind active, keeps me striving towards something.

So those of you that make comments about me being arrogant and full of myself, not the cause at all. These last three years my dad (who's in his early 50s) has been on a downward spiral (chronic drinking) since his mother died. So much so, I've been paying on an insurance policy. Just here recently, my dad got released from the hospital because he almost died... again. The same dad who made me feel like shit, made me feel inadequate, that thought I was a "faggot" just because I was interested in doing something besides sports.

And yet when I was on the chat, I have people making me out to be somebody else. Well, this is the real me. And because I know who that real me is, I can step away from a situation I know I don't deserve to deal with. I encourage you all to do the same.

I was planning for this to be my new profile pic because I thought it would be something fun, but it got denied. So I'll just share it here because I thought it was cool. Maybe you guys might find it cool too... just disappointed, lol.

I just wanted to take this moment to express how much Asian culture has had an impact on me in my life. Starting with the fact that Asian culture was what got me into Martial arts (as well as movies in general) as a child. We call them Martial Arts films, but that genre of film is Asian Culture's domain. I grew up on Jackie Chan, Bruce Lee (one of the most influential people in my life), Jet Li, Chow Yun-Fat, Michelle Yeow (can't forget the women), Zhang Ziti, Chow Yun-fat, Shaw Brothers (especially 36 chambers of Shaolin), Tony Jaa. This also includes anime: Yu Yu Hakusho, Naruto, Ruroni Kenshin, Dragon Ball Z, Cowboy Bebop. I grew up on all of this as a child fascinated with everything about martial arts, everything about the asian culture.

And today in my 20s I have an even greater appreciation for Asian Culture. Still love those Martial arts films (still watching shaw brothers films I haven't seen), still watching anime (I also read manga avidly, especially Jujutsu Kaisen). But now my interest in Asian culture has expanded, I love Japanese Street fashion. I have some harajuku brands in my closet which is some of my signature style now. I also really love kimonos, I even love how they dressed in the older times. My future place is going have lots of Japanese aesthetic going on, I love their style of tables, their artwork. I remember when Linsanity was going on and Jeremy Lin was with the New York Knicks. I was so amazed with this guy, especially when he beat my Kobe (the other influential person in my life that was also influenced by Bruce Lee) led Lakers. But I was happy for this dude. I hated the way he was being treated in the media and among players. I loved his documentary which gave me more in depth understanding of his journey to the NBA and the that he's a believer in Christ like me. Truly inspired me in a dark time.

Anyway, everybody seems cool for the most part on here. I hope there is no Asian hate going on. Those dominants that over do it with the trash talk, please mind what you say. And if any of the Asian community needs to talk, I'm here and would love to learn more about Asian culture as well. I just named China and Japan mostly, but I'd love to know more about Korea, Thailand (obviously Muay thai is my favorite martial art), ect. I love all of Asian Culture. So please, no Asian hate. No hate at all, we have so much to learn from each other as human beings. And we have to fight at some point too, lol.

I finally got to have my first match today and it was so, so fun. So much I didn't want to stop, lol. I've always led the way with my other fetish, but I never really put the focus into this one. But now the I've experienced it first hand, I definitely one want to experience more matches on here. I knew I could take punches, but man I really took a lot of punches. It took a long time to be hurt by them, another reminder for you guys out there to drink your milk if you want to break this Ferrari Jobber down. But my abs are a little sore, so I'll be quiet for now, lol.

But I just wanted to document my first experience on here, if anybody has any questions about my match and what happen, I'm an open book. You can just comment or here or message me if that is more comfortable for you.